I’m straddling between two worlds and it’s about to tear me apart.
I just wish this desire to be a part of this poisonous, toxic, and allover not good world was gone…. But it feels so good sometimes.
And I don’t understand how I can yearn for God so much and how I can cry out to Him… Yet still seek out the things that will satisfy me in this world.
I want the best of both worlds I guess. I want the fun and carefree. But I also want the undying, everlasting love that God showers me with all the time.
Something tells me life doesn’t really work like that though. I keep compromising and I’m afraid of what the ultimate consequence will be.
| me: | this is a bad idea and will only make me sad |
| me: | okay let's do it |
(Source: saddest-summer, via pirrrru)
“Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life” (Proverbs 4:23 AMP).
When something is toxic, it’s poisonous; it can destroy you. When we go around dwelling on the wrong thoughts, thinking about what we can’t do or how we’ll never get ahead, those thoughts are toxic thoughts. Toxic thoughts left alone become like toxic waste that sinks into your heart. It will eventually contaminate your whole life. It affects your self-image. It affects your attitude, your level of confidence, and ultimately, your success. That’s why the scripture says to guard your heart because the condition of your heart and mind determine the condition of your whole life.
Make the decision today to detox any negative, self-defeating thoughts by meditating on God’s promises instead. Make the decision to detox bitterness, detox low self-esteem, detox negative words that may have been spoken over you, detox condemnation. Make the decision to dwell on what God says about you. God says, “You are forgiven.” God says, “Your best days are in front of you.” God says, “I’ll restore the years that the enemy has stolen.” As you detox your mind and fill your thoughts with His promises, you’ll see His hand of blessing on your life. You’ll rise up higher, and you’ll live the abundant life He has for you!
3. Homecoming - what it meant to you and your memories of it
Hm… I only went with a date freshman year… then sophomore year I went without one and the dance was kinda boring but it was good hanging out with Jodie and Eunice :) And senior year I just went to dinner but not the dance~ It was never really fun and I’m not really into the school dances.. but I’m excited for prom!
4. The most trouble you’ve ever gotten in to
My mom never caught me doing anything.. so I never really got in trouble… She doesn’t really know half the things I do… LOL
But I get in trouble for like grades or spending too much money… and it’s not like she grounds me. She just guilt-trips me. And it usually never works… Heh
